Controlled or Free

People often say, “With the lowest points come the highs.” But where do these highs actually lie? Hello! I’ve been searching for them since 2019. We all hear the advice: “Just hang on until life gets better.” But does this advice really work? Honestly, I don’t think so. Before you start judging my thoughts, let me explain. With my limited English skills,  Chat gpt said so. The truth is, highs don’t just appear out of lows. You have to create them for yourself. I’ve been stuck in my lows for what feels like forever. The last year I remember feeling genuinely happy was 2019. Then someone ate a bat, and the world changed. Why would you eat a bat man?  Since then, life has felt heavy, and even though I’ve tried to find happiness, it’s often been temporary. Still, I know this: unless you push yourself to rise from your lowest point, you’ll never truly find your highest. You can’t rely on life to hand you joy. Maybe “holding on” really means doing the things you love, over and ove...

I am lying on the bed after a whole hectic day. Seeing the phone connected to my charger.I pick it up, and suddenly MY BRAIN has a vivid vision of something – "What is it? I try to remember." Only to discover it was a cringe decision I took in the past.  Let's agree we all have guilty memories we wish never existed. I mean, I remember myself crying just to undo those things. Once I burnt my own diary by mistake. After few seconds I remember, I was begging and crying to God, " Please SAVE MY DIARY! " I was in 6th. It's not the most cringe memory yet. What is cringe? to feel embarrassed/ to be uncomfortable seeing something or someone? maybe? That's my defined answered. In 11th grade, I filmed myself singing a song about being a depressed college student with my friends. The worst part – the watchman saw...and laughed .                                              ...